Is something I have never had to worry about, as in past experiences ive never looked back. Until now. After recently going through a break up I gave my ex in question time to come to terms with our parting, after four years in love it was time to move on, but when is life ever that simple!
He, being what you'd call a "nice guy" didn't deal with break up very well and having me to be there for him all this time and then to leave in his position, quite suddenly is what you'd call a shock to the system. So how do you go about letting go of a person you loved and shared your life with for a long time, without absolutely destroying their world is something I still haven't discovered. The guilt that comes with being the 'breaker' is something I am still getting used to, the phone calls the texts and the IM's were at one point in my life, something I looked forward to but now dread, knowing that their hurting and the only thing that can make it better is you, but not having the will to help them is soul crushing. But then you have to look forward to a future where they're not hurting anymore and the reasons you broke up are the reason you've been able to move on with your life, into a much happier place.
When we broke up all I could think about was moving on I'd made my decision and that was that, but when I look back at what I left behind I wonder is it easier to get back into a relationship that you weren't happy in just to make life easier on the man you used to love? Now i know the obvious answer is no but when that person is just a mess and the only person that can help is you, where does the answer lie? Can you be friends with an ex? If so will that ex ever get over you of you stay friends or will you just end up back where you started ... in love?
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