Update

So since moving home many things have changed, I'm working like mad clocking up nearly forty hours a week serving coffee to the people of Llanelli, it's not so bad really same as Newport, same regulars, same kids and definitely same arseholes, I'm learning that people are the same where ever you go,with different faces and outfits but definitely the same. I'm seeing the Ex on and off, that is well I don't know what that is, I think it's the aftermath of love and my stubbornness of hoarding things and the inability to let things go. I know he loves me and wants me for all my flaws but it boils down to the simple thing of I want something from him that he cant give, I want him to be someone he cant be and I think I'm ready to be on my own and accept our friendship. I mean it's hard letting go of the security that he brings but the lack of sex is just a killer!

Saw the college lot the other day, learning that a game of Kiss, Marry or One Night Stand with the college lot, turns out I'm the one night stand which is nice I think! After two bottles of wine, a one night stand seemed like a plan until I was sick all night and then up for work at ten, it was not a good look on me!

I am however missing my city Big Time, mainly the men, the easy lifestyle and the housemates, the good times we shared and the good sex I had. GOSH being at home doesn't half affect my sex life! But I'm sure there are good times ahead and Mallorca in September (I decided Spain need's to see my partying before I go and turn my back on my my old friend), South America next year and hopefully some new men in-between!